Woe is Me

Well, it has finally happened. My job, where I've wasted a good year of my life, with nothing to show for it is finally ending. At the end of the month, they will be shutting down the Houston office. I was completely expecting this, so it's not like it was something that occurred just out of the blue. Still bummed, of course. Nobody wants to be in this position, although millions of people are. Ever since June I have been applying and sending out my resume anywhere & everywhere I could think of. No real response, save for a few employment agencies and a few (very) low paying jobs. I'm just not that desperate to go back to working a $12/hour job. I have a freaking college degree & 10 years of work experience. Seriously? And you want me to go slave away for you making $10 to $12/per hour. Riiiight. I'm just so pissed about it all. I've been here since October, with no benefits, no incentive; I've come in every day and worked as hard as I could. I should have never accepted this job. I was just so ready to get back to work after the baby, that I pretty much accepted the first thing that came my way. I should have known how unstable this company was at the beginning. Damn it.

I guess I will have to believe that for every door that is closed a new one opens and there you are, with a new and better opportunity. I have a telephone interview today with an alternative certification program to obtain a teaching certificate. I've always known I would one day venture into the world of teaching, and it looks like that day may arrive sooner that I anticipated. I've always wanted to be a teacher. I loved my second grade teacher so much and since then, I've always thought that one day I would be just like her and try to make a difference in somebody's life. I would absolutely love to be able to teach Elementary school and that is what I really want to do. I am ready to take on the responsibility of teaching. I also have an application in for some substitute work in a few school districts. I just have to get my transcripts together and submit everything. I guess once this job is done, I will apply for unemployment to get some kind of income coming in, start my ACP classes and hopefully land a few subbing jobs here and there to get a little bit of classroom experience under my belt.

I felt during and after college that I would continue my path in the corporate world. I've been working in offices since I was 18. I really enjoy the work and have always had success in my previous jobs. This job has just completely left a bad taste in my mouth in regards to how some people run their businesses. It's disgusting. It's misleading & it's effed up. Unless I happen to find an awesome company to work with, I am done with the corporate world. I know I am an intelligent and hard-worker, and I know I bring value to every position I have been in. I just wish my hard work and determination would have led me down a different path.

But, that being said...I AM excited about pursuing this teaching thing. I think it's a great career for those with a family (and without!). Summers off to spend with your kids or loved ones is incentive enough for me. Since Lola is a summer baby, that means I would get to spend every birthday with her and hopefully be able to start a tradition of a little family vacation/birthday celebration for my babycakes. And, being a teacher also means great benefits, which is something that has been missing from my life for quite some time. AND, not to mention, it would be a perfect scenario to bring another Spurlock-Torres baby into the world!!

Hooo-aaaahh!