Memorial

After about 8 months of not working out, cause let's face it, I was pregnant and I milked it for all I could. I ate healthy (sometimes), and while I walked about 3-4 days out of the week, it was nothing close to a work out. Gaining 40 pounds isn't the worst thing in the world...I could have gained a lot more! But still, pre-pregnancy I freaked out when I gained 5 pounds, so now that I have LOTS of work to do, I am starting to get a bit freaked! Granted, I've lost 20 pounds of baby, water weight and blood, I still have 20 to go to get back to pre-preggo weight. Although, I would love and will try my damnedest to get back to my "good" weight, or as I like to call it, my "sexy" weight. You know, the weight where ALL of your clothes look amazing, anything you try on actually fits and looks good, and damn, you feel hott! Yes, I want to look like that again. That would mean 40 pounds total. That may take some time. I figure that as long as I get back to the pre-preggo weight relatively soon, I can work more gradually at losing the last 20.

So, on track with my goals, I decided to head out to Memorial today to get the ball rolling. It was kind of cloudy, so not too miserably hot. Well, I get out there and for the first mile and a half, I am feeling good. Maybe that was because I was in the shaded area for that first mile. After that mile and a half, I was in hell. I have NEVER felt so exhausted from walking a measly 3 miles. I then recalled that in the past 3 days, I may have slept for a total of 10 hours and ate very little calories. Today, I slept for about 4 hours and yup...forgot to eat! Well, the mixture of sleep deprivation, the absence of fuel in my body, the blazing hot sun and the fact that I hadn't worked out in 8 months drained me. I think I was on the brink of heat exhaustion, it totally sucked ass. For the first time ever, I had to stop at a bench and take a "rest". It was only about 3 minutes, but still...I felt like a loser!! I just had to remind myself that I just had a baby....and next time I go (tomorrow) I will definitely eat something!

*Note - I am not starving myself...At this point, I would rather sleep when the baby sleeps than eat. Unfortunately, when she's awake I feed her and hold her until we both fall asleep. The food factor is second on my list of priorities.